Thankful

2020

2020 was a tough year for a lot of us. It’s a feat in itself to have actually survived last year. So instead of focusing on the goals that I may or may have not accomplished during to 2020, I want to focus on what I’m proud of and what I am truly thankful for this last year. 

If I’m Dead to You, Why are You at the Wake?

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace

And you're the hero flying around, saving face

And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake?

Cursing my name

Wishing I stayed

Look at how my tears ricochet

It’s Beginning to Look A lot Like Christmas

Even when I’m not in the Christmas spirit, I still have enough cheer in me to watch a good holiday movie. I would have to say as a kid How The Grinch Stole Christmas was my absolute favorite. I couldn’t miss it when it aired on TV every single holiday season. Of course, I loved Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer and Frosty the Snowman, but I always preferred the Christmas villain. This shouldn’t be a shock to anyone. It explains my current obsession with Krampus. Oh, and can we talk about Home Alone 1 and 2? These films are Christmas classics and they’ll will never get old to me. I still adore these movies now as much as I did when I was a kid. 

Light as a Feather, Stiff as a Board

Photos by View Beyond Sight Photography

Strange and Unusual

Photos by View Beyond Sight Photography

Thankful

Photos by Vutha

This is Halloween! This is Halloween!

Everyone Hail to Pumpkin Queen Now!

What’s This?

Photos by Noelle Miles Photography

Queen of the Pumpkin Patch

Photos by View Beyond Sight Photography

Trick or Treat?

Photos by Vutha

Sam’s Rules of Halloween

The 4 Rules of Halloween: 

1. Wear a Costume

2. Hand out treats

3. Never blow out a Jack O’Lantern

4. Always check your candy 

Pumpkins Scream in the Dead of Night

Photos by View Beyond Sight Photography

I Sense There’s Something in the Wind

Photos by Boris Quezada Photography

The Floral Escape

The Old New Me

I’ve noticed a dramatic shift in my attitude towards my brunette locks this summer. I’ve finally started to accept my natural hair color again, and dare I say, appreciate it. It’s been 2 and half years since I said goodbye to my blonde ambitions. The problem though is that it was never on my own terms. It was due to my dire financial status (as I thought I was going to be jobless) and the severe damage that was being done to my hair. Unfortunately for me, I have very thin, fragile hair that breaks easily. I’m surprised my tresses were able to handle the decade long onslaught of abuse it suffered from being bleached every month.  

Destroy the Fear

You Didn’t Even See the Signs...

I think I've seen this film before

And I didn't like the ending 

I'm not your problem anymore

So who am I offending now?

You were my crown

Now I'm in exile seeing you out

I think I've see this film before

So I'm leaving out the side door...

Staying and Letting Go

I found myself idling there for so long. I lost my self-worth and happiness in the process. I watched as I slowly disconnected myself from you. I didn’t know who I was anymore. I didn’t know who I was without you. And so, I fought the inevitable. Sometimes, even when your heart says to let go, you still find yourself hanging on. Sometimes, for dear life.