Suicide is NOT Selflish

Today is National Suicide Prevention Day, and I’d like to share something that has weighed heavily on me for a while. 

Running Up That Hill

And if I only could 

Make a deal with God 

Get him to swap our places 

Be running up that road 

Be running up that hill 

Be running up that building 

Grief Awareness Day

What’s become really loud to me as I’ve gone through the profound grief of losing my brother is just how grief-illiterate our society is. Maybe I wasn’t in a position to recognize it after the losses I experienced before, but going through this has made it impossible not to noticed.

Stardust

That Way

I'll Cross the World to Get to You

Sadly, it’s the last concert of the season, but we’re ending it with Poppy! This time, we were back at Pier 17, and I have to admit, I love the scenery at this venue. You get a stunning panoramic view of the Brooklyn Bridge and the Manhattan skyline behind the outdoor stage. It’s probably the most quintessentially NYC venue we have. But after my second time here, I’m realizing there’s a certain vibe missing for me: immersion. 

Knicks in 5 🧡💙

I know I don’t look like a sports girlie. I certainly never played any sports in my lifetime, and I’m not exactly athletic, but I like watching them. LOL.

But You Still Have... All of Me

Now that we’re wrapping up concert season with my metal girlies, you’d think I’d be soaking up every last show. But for some reason, in the days leading up to this one, and even the day of, I just...wasn’t feeling it. I genuinely didn’t want to go. Every now and then, life just sucks the energy right out of me, and I need a little push to remind myself that I’ll probably have a great time once I’m actually there.

Keeping My Head Above Water

I think I finally understand something about myself that I couldn't quite put into words before. There were so many days when I questioned why I wasn't crying or why I felt even the slightest sense of being okay. It almost made me feel guilty, like something was wrong with me for not falling apart the way I thought I should. But now I see it differently.

On My Way Here

I’m Here for the Moment

We’re so back with another concert this month! This time we got to see Electric Callboy. Thankfully, the concert was at the Brooklyn Paramount, which is fairly close to us whether we take the train or just Uber. I also like this venue because we can get balcony general admission, which means I don’t have to be down in the chaos that is the floor.

Signs

I Think It's Brave

Can You Feel My Heart?

I feel like lately music and movies are the only things giving me any real sense of feeling in my heart. I’ve been hyped for Mother Mary and the Mandalorian and Grogu saga. I’ve been so excited about the Nine Inch Nails and Boy Noize collaboration, and I’ve had the new Korn song on repeat over and over again. And then there was this: me somehow finding “reasonable” tickets to see BMTH at MSG.

Fleeting

Cherry blossoms symbolize renewal and new beginnings, while also serving as a reminder of life’s impermanence. Their brief, fleeting bloom encourages us to cherish each moment, as their beauty and presence are temporary.

A Reminder

Halo

Do You Feel Love?

The mission of the day was to see if Prudential was going to piss me off or not, considering the Nine Inch Nails incident. We arrived 15 minutes before doors opened at 6 pm and got through in 5 minutes, even though I was patted down by security. *Rolls eyes.* I know I’m a fiery short bitch, but all I had was jewelry on, no weapons. So Prudential is still on my shit list, but they have a chance at redemption. I really hope I never have to go back there, though.

You Get Me Closer to God

What’s more romantic than seeing Nine Inch Nails on Valentine’s Day? This was another 2026 concert I questioned on whether I should spend my money on, and if I was making the best life decisions, as I had just seen NIN five months ago, but it was Valentine’s Day, and I don’t know if I’ll have another opportunity to see one of my favorite bands of all time. Ironically, Trent Reznor even said at a recent show that he doesn’t know if they’ll ever tour again. Hearing that only reinforced my reckless decision to be there.

Galentines!

I’m glad Valentine’s Day has become more than just a holiday for lovers. Not that it wasn’t before. My mom used to give my siblings and me Russell Stover’s chocolates every year, and we’d hand out those tiny Valentine’s cards to everyone in elementary school. I still love those little traditions today, even though I’m not a kid anymore. But lately, the holiday feels different.